EXAM-IN-ASIAN (EXAMINATION)

Today was such an awful day,
I barely able to breath,
P.A was like a stranger to me,
for the very first time,
i couldn't CRAP any shits into my essay,
and i was just looking at the front the whole day..
just being to look at the back of hers (Many womans i guess),
but not able to look at the face..
just to see whether she's doing fine with the paper,
and not to forget.. i barely get to see her for like year ( only 1 week and 2 days approximate)
How i wished my name wasn't jumbled up in the last few alphabetical order..
i would at least get to sit somewhere front,
where i could just look at the right hand side,
just when i lost grip of the idea i wanted to compress in the stupid text pad,
thats is just a mere fantasy,
just once is enough,
just how i wished i could lay my head on the table with my arms as the soft cushion,
and look at her just when the whole world feels like crumbling apart,
at see her facial expression changes everytime she encounters difficulty and everytime she got the answer she needed,
that's just the perfect and wonderful moment i could ever imagine,
just by looking,
time passes so fast,
as though exams are like the only way i could look at her without her noticing..
but too bad,
i'm sitting at the last row and i could only see the back,
and watch the surrounding chance,
when people started to break down and give up,
and people scribbling as though the world is gonna end..
and not to forget people sleeping,
just like how it used to be..
and that made me wonder,
why am i doing those stuff when i got a paper to finish,
but what to do..
that's life..
you can't expect to finish a paper which you only got to see for the first time,
and it's also the last time you are gonna look at it,
once the time ends,
goodbye is the only thing i could say to the papers..
so all i could say is FREEDOM for a week..
and STUDY for the last month..
muahahahaahahahaha...