When things Move on...

If I knew University life is going to make each one of us so busy,
During the last eight months together I wish I could have spend more time with you guys,
To just tell you guys how much you were too me,
It's easy to make new friends..
But it's hard to get Friends like you guys once in a lifetime,
Pursuing a degree may have given me a better option in life,
Yet knowing you guys been the best option given to me in this whole 20 years of life,
I was a fool to tell myself it's okay going somewhere far to further my studies,
It's freedom after all..
Yet three weeks have past just like that without you guys,
I tremble in loneliness,
I fear that I might just give up and return to the place where I truly belong,
But every time seeing those wall posts on each of you guys wall,
I was really glad that you guys enjoy Uni,
And it made me to not want to give up what I work so hard till now,
Some of you guys might think I'm nuisance for not setting my priorities right..
I know family are important..
I wish i could just tell you all face to face that I never told you that I lied telling you all that I prioritize Friends first rather than My family..
The truth was You been part of my family since we started to venture through hardship and enjoyment together during Form 6..
And about the girlfriend part.. I moved on and I really want to focus more on you guys as it's hard to tell when I got one in the near future and I don't want to choose to neglect either one side..

If I could exchange my life for anything,
All I ask is another nine months of memories with you guys..

Just so you know..

I wish I could be brave once more..
To tell myself to move on,
To reassure what I really want,
To tell you that I'm ready,
But everytime I try moving on,
My heart stops a beat,
Unsure of what it really want,
I end up waiting right at the same spot,
The very one which you left me,
With hopes the star will shine,
You darken the life of what used to shine..

If you knew...

A sentence from me may seem to be a joke to you..

Yet did you every really tried listening once..

That all I tried to do is to reach your heart..
To really tell you once that I mean it..

And all I need is one chance to prove it to you..
But now.. you are far away from me..
So far that the mountain is higher than i could imagine,

The Sea became so vast that all I saw was the blue sea and the clear sky..
till death do us apart..

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand,

And the Mountain touches heaven,
my love for you is eternal..

This Moment

There are some moment which I want to indulge into again and again..

Yet sometime when I'm far away from the place I belong..

I miss Home,

I miss those unforgettable 9 months of memories with them..

Painful sometimes

I tried telling myself that if I quit now.. what was for the 20 years I've been doing..

Yet.. in times of loneliness..

All I do was to relight those fond memories of you guys..

Kept on watching the Video we took for Jo's birthday..

It made me feel that you guys were really talking to me..

Each one of your voices..
made tears to start rolling down my cheek..
Made me feel like all this while nothing could have been better,
As bold as I said leaving Klang was for Freedom..
I end up Missing the feeling of being there..
I miss my parents asking me to do this and that..
Band 6 which we all went out occasionally..
I miss Klang Lifestyle..
I miss the old me which anywhere I go.. there's at least a group of people to associate with..
Now I'm here telling you that I'm alone..
And never would ever to be in that state..
it feels horrible..
No one to Nag me about my doings..
No one to talk to randomly..
No one to snatch stuff with..
It sucks..