It's just how it is suppose to be..

What is the point having a dozen stars to look upon the gloomy night at labuan,
When all I remember is the one and only one of the brightest star in klang,
Sometimes it is just hard to tell someone or the one whom you wish your heart could whisper to their,
It seriously feel sad when all i'm trying to do is to avoid people from regretting on the decision that they shouldn't had make..
It always remind me of the past..
which i want to get rid of but with no choice to live on with it,
I'm still thinking sometimes,
wondering are you thinking the same thing as i am,
are you still dwelling on the past,
Maybe both of us just decide to move on,
to know that love is not the only thing required in life, but fate is what determine most..
For now..
I'm just wishing that one day.. God would just give me a chance to protect the one whom i treasure most,
and hope that she knows that all said and done, it just sincerity that matters most..

Now and the past

When I look back into my previous post which accumulates to about 100 post..
I was laughing so hard at how I used to be.. It made me thought of what I had done since I started blogging during form 6...
Time do fly fast.. but still the past did not fly away.. I still can remember clearly what happen in those days,
Me being naive of loving someone so deep and just asking in return to be loved,
Me being lucky to have awesome friends which till now they are like my family,
Me being stupid for enjoying life and taking my studies for granted..
and Lastly, I realized one important which is I ask God a few request.. and indeed he did answered me..
Not immediately but it happen eventually.. all my request came through.. and he show me what my eyes could not see at first..

But now when I enter University.. there are a few individual whom spoke of their opinion of going to University is too enjoy,
and I was like pissed off with their thoughts as I know the feeling of being in the border or nothingness.
Almost losing everything due to the fact of enjoying too much instead of pursuing for my future..
and In University.. everything is different.. An average guy like me at Klang is Seriously(not joking) just an average guy.. but when it comes to being in uni... they thought i was like a smart ass.. but i wasn't...
and they thought I'm a nice guy which will help out anytime, any subject..
HELL NO!!!
Cause during the form 6 life, I learn that in some manner you gotta be acting selfish and dumb.. Cause it is seriously for your own good.. But for my awesome friends( you ppl know who i'm talking about)... I can pick the moon and seriously talk to it for you guys,
I could ramp a rampaging bull and say come on.. it's just a cow..
and I could even tell you how much i love you guys and show that i mean it in every part of my heart.. Not just bottom..
But the center of my heart is still left for the one and only woman.. so don't get jealous.. hahahaha