Look at me.. DO I GIVE A SHIT!!!

Does Numbers really mean so much to people..
Does it show how good one is in life..
Does it even leads to you thinking that i'm just a smart guy hiding my true colours..
IT DOES NOT TO ME!!!!

So what if I got great pointer for my examination...
I get it with my hard work and the effort I put is not even a litre lesser than how much others did..
But why does people like to compare my pointer with theirs..
It sick and tiring.. and worst of all you are comparing with me whom for the past 5 years no one bother to really know what I achieved in my examination..
That show's the real KIA SU people got in their heart..
I dont mind getting worst result for this semester.. but still
I want everyone to know that..
The day I start studying and work hard for a better future..
I did it not to show everyone I can..
I did it to tell myself that THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE...
My last door which leads to a better future..
and GUESS WHAT!!!
I DON'T PLAN TO DESTROY MY FUTURE JUST FOR THE SAKE OF TELLING YOU PEOPLE THAT YOU ALL TOO CAN GET THAT STUPID HIGH POINTER...

p.s :
I'm starting all my revision and updating my notes cause I WANT TO BE KIA SU!!!! MY WISH!!! FOF.MB.. in other words.. FUCK OFF FROM MY BUSINESS!!!!

Thoughts

It tiring sometimes being someone which never in my life I thought I would be..
So what getting a result so many people wanted to achieve..

All I want is a result which satisfy my hard work and all the tears in my heart..
And I studied not because I wanted to get good result..
I'm studying late nights just so I'm tired enough that I don't think much about you..
I'm trying my best to make up for what I abandon just to give more attention to you..
So don't judge me for whom I now..
Cause you don't know the me 4 years back...

1 year...

Time Passes like how the river flows endlessly..
It's almost a year.. or rather 8 more days to go..
The day I took my Result for STPM..
and the day you decided that I was just another guy you known..
A year passed since you turned me down..
I was sad, frustrated, set backed and most of all I lost the purpose of achieving something in Life..
You were the reason why I studied and worked hard for a better result,
But the answer you gave just made the Examination slip I took looked nothing but merely a piece of paper filled with blacked printing words..
It's true the days without any purpose was suffering..
But at least you show me that I was really just another guy which a million of even trillions of other guys outstands me..
but now a year had past and I'm still single..
But for sure i had moved on after some times..
And I wasn't expecting anything more from you any longer..
What I gained and learn over the past 1 years was..
I gained true friendship..
I learned that times does heals a broken heart..
and I found out that I was actually into studying and TOMOMI!!!
Life again serve me a purpose of living..
that's why time really changes everything.. including what's in the heart..

Was trying ever enough!!!

During those young age moments.. the naive thought that came across my mind was,
1. To be successful one must always study,
2. As long as you put something into your hearts things will bend according to your way..
3. Loving someone with all you got and showing it will eventually called as true love..
4. Flirting is bad for health and self esteem..
5. Doing homework makes someone smart as people will come to you to copy..
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But as time pass.. I realize these are nonsense..
Cause to be successful.. you don't need to study.. all you need is time and chance..
No matter how much you put an effort into something things just don't come along you.. that's why it's call challenging..
True love doesn't mean you love someone so much and they will love you.. It's pure nonsense.. All we need is the right time which give the right click to the right moment..
Flirting is sometimes good.. cause it helps to think creative and learn to be more sociable..
Doing homework makes me look dumb as all will just take mine and copy.... might as well just copy people's...
That's what i call facts of life..
there are Times we need to think.. but most of the time thinking just complicates things..