True Friends

True friends...
I thought I had those right from the start on realizing reality..
But till what happen on the start on the 12th of August till the 15th of August year 2011...
I realize that they were truly friends of mine..
Friends which even when the moon turns blue..
it will still be the same..
We fought..
We had our differences
We too never forgets about the similarities that bonds us strongly..
It was comfortable..
More than a bolster or a pillow could give..
We never take those comfort for granted..
As each one of them is a wish granted upon wishing by the passing of a shooting star...
As bright as they shine..
They always found their way to cheer things up..
To lighten up the dim room..
To tell us no matter how bad the situation goes bad..
They will never turn their back and walk away..
These are the Friends I had..
The ones which I am thankful of being part of them
The ones which I know in years to come..
There's only one sentence which will will speak of..
No matter how far we are apart..
" TILL DEATH DO US APART "
we are one.. and one we will move as..

With love,
I had memories of each one of you,
Not in the brain that stores informations,
But the Heart which remembers each one of them.

Did you... (Incomplete)

Did you ever feel that you done too much that you feel yourself undone..
You put so much hope in things which it all sort of end up to be hopeless..
You tried so hard not to cry on the effort you made..
Yet Effort made seems to just lead you to tears..
You tried to have faith that it one of those blessing in disguise..
Knowing that yourself doubted it..
As it was never a blessing in disguise..
But a dismay in reality..
You thought by just putting effort and hope alone will pull through things..
You thought that the naivety of yours will apply in reality..
You really thought tears are worth of what people use to call priceless..
THAT was what you thought..
and That was what I used to be as well..
I endlessly thought if I did put it some effort.. good result will show..
I once told myself that if I loved someone from the bottom of the heart..
She too will do the same..
Yet.. that's just another 1 in a million of those naive thought I was bounded by..
And still when I gave up on trying to really love someone...
I tried giving a go in attaining true friendship..
I tried to blend in with a society stranger to me..
I change to be seen fit as part of them..
Yet I was just another puppet of theirs to string upon the play..
Now I tried to be what I used to be..
and when i'm on my way..
you just have to say i'm weird..
but thanks to that..
I found him..

Tearless...

When I try to grasp hold of something dear..
and It all end up with nothing but the sounds of the flapping hands of mine..
It made me want to cry...
I tried so hard to stay strong and to have faith that you one day will feel the warmth hand of mine..
and yet all i did was to leave with a cold heart..
Frozen upon endless silent tears from the heart..
I act as everything was fine..
while.. the truth was..
I couldn't find any reasons to be fine..
and as time pass..
I even lost the tears Ionce shed for you..
I felt really sad deep inside..
Yet tears would not roll down my cheek..
It feels like sadness yet despair..
and now..
All i had left is this frozen heart you left behind..
and this hands which no longer find will in grasping for something dear..
and perhaps you would no longer know about it..
as our paths diverges..
Just like how our story tore upon learning that only fairy tales have happy ending..

Once a White paper..
Inked with Passion..
Scribble with Imperfection..
Ruined by Distortions.
Ended as a Dust..