Your Satisfaction or MINE!!!

I was once naive thinking that i could satisfy everyone's need.
Yet during form 6 I realize that this is but a fool's job to be done with,
and yet there's still a desire in me to help others..
Till that day when he told me this
"Do you think you are happy satisfying everyone's need while neglecting yours"
"Do you think that they will appreciate what you had done for them"
"You should be grateful that your help does not turn out to be an sore eye to them"
"Think about it.. did you really feel happy helping out"
"or most of the times you just think that you are but a burden to them"
"You are brought down to earth not to write story line of how other live"
"You are the writer of your own life"
Till today I remember those words..
It was meaningful.. yet painful in the same time..
As time pass I could say I live for myself for the first time..
Till I enter University...
Things were different..
There were many lost souls..
This happen around their surrounding is like a new thing to tackle with..
Yet for me it's like the old same scenes during form 6..
And once again I tried helping.. But it end up with me being helpless..
So still I chose to go with this..
I Live not to Satisfy your needs..
But mine..
As I'm the writer of my life and I decide how things goes on..
And sadly i got to tell you that You were just a side character in my write up..
No matter how things goes.. Band 6 will always be in the story..
As without them..
What would I be today..
Thanks for showing me to whats reality and
for giving me something I never thought of getting in this lifespan...

6th of December...

What today bring forth is another's days past..
everyday we are creating another page to enter our diary of the past..

My diary had been so interesting that  3 days and 3 nights of talking about it wont get it done..

So instead of looking back to the past..

I decided to look forward to another mysterious day which is the 7th..

Uni life may be hectic in a way with assignments and finals to prepare..

Yet no matter how hectic it is... 

there's always time to lean back and think about what could happen tomorrow..

yet.. It is strange that sometimes things dont go my way..

Or rather there's aways a turbulence suddenly without any notification..

it is past 1 in the afternoon..

And it will start to be hectic again later till night..

I seek not for the will to stay alive..

but the will to encounter whats coming soon..

p.s. -*Protect her and if there's a need to reverse the karma.. pls do so on me