It's hard..

Was Today different from yesterday??
Or is Tomorrow gonna make a different..
Those thoughts used to linger here and there..
But now.. Since that day Pass.. Today seems no less than yesterday..
And Tomorrow never seems to arrive..
It's just to hard to not think about it..
It's really that hard.. And Do you know that..
For the uncountable number of time i had to put up that mask..
just to Lie to everyone "That I'm okay"..
"It's just another event of my life anyway"..
The truth was.. It was never okay.. never even slightly okay..
It's harder to put a smile when there's no heart to do so
compared to the time i tried smiling when sadness was filled within my heart..
Deep inside there..
Darkness was left by you...
and I was alone walking in the darkness just to find "Hope"
and till now i still linger in this mass darkness you left upon leaving my heart..
I felt the pain.. the echoes of my crumbling heart..
The sound of your footsteps vanishing as every heartbeat of mine starts to turn unheard or rather stop..
and now...
i just wish that you could tell me That "It's hard" for you to leave as well..
That's all...
Was "IT HARD"???