Did you... (Incomplete)

Did you ever feel that you done too much that you feel yourself undone..
You put so much hope in things which it all sort of end up to be hopeless..
You tried so hard not to cry on the effort you made..
Yet Effort made seems to just lead you to tears..
You tried to have faith that it one of those blessing in disguise..
Knowing that yourself doubted it..
As it was never a blessing in disguise..
But a dismay in reality..
You thought by just putting effort and hope alone will pull through things..
You thought that the naivety of yours will apply in reality..
You really thought tears are worth of what people use to call priceless..
THAT was what you thought..
and That was what I used to be as well..
I endlessly thought if I did put it some effort.. good result will show..
I once told myself that if I loved someone from the bottom of the heart..
She too will do the same..
Yet.. that's just another 1 in a million of those naive thought I was bounded by..
And still when I gave up on trying to really love someone...
I tried giving a go in attaining true friendship..
I tried to blend in with a society stranger to me..
I change to be seen fit as part of them..
Yet I was just another puppet of theirs to string upon the play..
Now I tried to be what I used to be..
and when i'm on my way..
you just have to say i'm weird..
but thanks to that..
I found him..