Marry Chris-T-MUST

There's this one moment where you could just wish the whole world to poof..
and as times pass..
you lack the courage to tell other's that you are fine..
when the truth is.. you were feeling any better..
It felt as if your heart just beat slower day by day..
signifies that you may one day stop breathing..
and now.. here you are.. writing this during Christmas..
where it's a day joy's comes and giving is all about Christmas..
still you never stop being emotionally drift apart..
and many asked you why..
You said it's normal..
and to avoid the temptation of rotting at home..
but the truth was.. you were feeling lonely inside..
but cheerful in the outside..
you thought that by doing things and letting chores burden your time..
you could just slip away without thinking about her..
but you were wrong..
the moment you take a break..
lay your head on the sofa..
thing's started to form inside your brain.
lust is conquering your heart..
and evil is trampling over your faith..
you thought of her.,.
wondering if she's enjoying her time..
wishing the best for her..
neglects your lust to just send her a text or even called her..
You tell other it's fine.. as long as you are happy..
but deep down there..
you scream of sadness..
echoes of your voice..
trembling the very foundation you try to keep onto..
and now..
again.. here you are..
staring at the Monitor..
checking your dead empty phone screen..
wishing that she could just text you..
Merry Christmas..