Day 2 - You

Where are you now,
What are you doing?
Are you in this endless sky?
I realized for the first time
I've lost the things that have filled my heart till now
How much you supported me
How much you made me smile
That I'd lost them was too much to consider
Even though I struggled so desperately to reach out my hand 
and
take them back
Like the wind they slipped through,
looking as though they would reach me,
but did not
My chest was tightened by loneliness and despair
My heart felt like it would break
But your smiling face remained in my memories
Always encouraging me
Let's return to those days once more
I know it will be alright this time
Always smiling at your side
Close by your side
so
Will you smile for me like always?

Day 1- What comes and Doesn't

Isn't it obvious that the mist gotta come no matter how hard i tried to run away..
The feeling of being lost..
the feeling of not being able to feel anything anymore..
The feeling which succumbs after one another..
It just felt so lost..
I i just want to remain there..
i want to be lost in the mist..
To cling onto the things i shouldn't
and now
The hardest things to do now is to keep a smile behind the crying heart..
How i wish i could just let it out..
To cry till my heart whispers with a faint beat..
To just breakdown and never wish to stand up again..
To just scream out loud
till there's never tomorrow to rest upon..
To just grab tight and never let go knowing that it hurts even more..
To just say why don't we give a shot.. maybe we could leave this mist we are in..
But instead..
I found the way out..
Guided you out of the mist..
Told you it's okay to go first..
and don't look back..
Cause i'm just gonna stay in the mist..
And it will stay the same..
No matter what..
Just have a great life ahead..,
That's my sole promise for you..
Cause you might not be the first to be in the mist..
but you will be the last person i ever want to be in this mist..
This very mist that comes and goes...
This very mist that doesn't seems to have logic..
But is trying to be illogical most of the time..
This mist...