I wished!!

I just wished that i could let my feelings reach your,
My arms to grab you tight that you will never leave me,
My heart to be by your side to warmth your heart,
but i knew that i couldn't
i just wish i could faced you,
or just shout out loud,
that i really really want you so bad,
i want you to be my first valentine,
i want you to just know i love you,
not because you are beautiful i love you,
not because you are understanding i love you,
not because you are close to me i love you,
not because i am alone i love you,
not because i am desperate i love you,
it just because of you are you which made me to love you with all my heart,
and i can really felt that link coming by,
but i am afraid,
really afraid that i would not have that chance to do it,
i understand your problems,
and i take it as a priority before decing to tell you how i felt,
maybe it just really ties which form a transparent glass between us,
even knowing that i could have break the glass and cross over it,
but doing so lead to your heart and mine being stabbed with the shattered glass i broke,
that why all i could do now is to watch you from far,
knowing that watching you hurts more than being by your side...

You lied and what do you expect me to do..
tell you that i knew you lied..
or just play dumb again..
But for now..
I guess all i could do is just take a few steps backwards,
and stay the way it should be..
cause looking at the undying beauty of the skies,
still make me feel insecure,
of what it could bring forth into the atmosphere,
just like you,
no matter how much i love you,
still i felt insecure of doing so,
not knowing when you are gonna hurt me,
and leave me as i am..
so for now..
don't blame yourself or me..
blame the truth that pops out..

No matter how vast and beauty the skies are,
looking at it still makes me feel insecure,
as i don't know what the skies might bring into the atmosphere..
Just like no matter how many layers of steel plate i try to cart outside my heart,
I still feel cold and insecure in the inside,
not know when will you,
the one and only one,
able to penetrate through all those steel plate,
and leave a hole in my heart..

MIllion!!!

A million question about our life i wanted to ask,
as 7 months just flew away..
it felt like 7 years..
the pain of only being able to look,
but to refrain from speaking..
All thanks to my guts that fall of right when i need it so badly..
But now.. I try texting you..
be the first whom embrace the morning for you,
and the last to cuddle you to the bed at night..
still i hope that I could lend a shoulder for you to lean on the afternoon,
to tell me all you want me to hear...
and now.. in the night i wanna dream about you..
and yet i got smacked in the face,
knowing that i will wake up and face the reality that you are still far from me..
Though i told many that sometimes you don't need the lips to whisper the words,
cause you had a heart to send the beatings...
still i need to talk..
and i'm still stuck here..
waiting for you..
looking upon the skies..
hoping that you will drop on my laps..
like the shooting star...

= D

The skies are right above my head,
and the ground are right where my leg step foot on it,
where my friends are close to my heart,
and my enemies are closer to my fist,
but you will always be in my heart..
Only YOU!!!

What i want!!

Sometimes I just don't know what to think or rethink,
as all i could do is to talk to others and look at you,
maybe you didn't notice much about it,
yet sometimes i wish you do..
still i don't really know whether it happens or maybe it's just one of my fantasies,
cause i felt my heart falling every time my eye's met yours,
just one second of the moment could take my breath away..
and still i want more..
I was hoping that i found the guts to just talk to you,
yet i'm still worried that words would hurt you,
especially those whom came from My mouth...
And now I demand for my fingers to be a man for once,
so i could just text you and tell you how much i miss you,
instead of writing this here,
not knowing whether it would reach you or not,
whether you know i'm talking about you...
even if you did not..
still i wished for you,
to not only be in my heart,
but to be by my side..
just so i could tell you that,
i will cherish every moment you give to me,
knowing that The future is uncertain,
But my love for you is certain for as long as you could imagine...

Tonight (recompose some words)

I remember the times we spent together

on those drives,

We had a million questions

all about our lives,

and when we got together

everything felt right

I wish you were here with me

tonight

I remember the days we spent together

were not enough

and it used to feel like dreamin'

except we always woke up

Never thought not having you

here now would hurt so much

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up

I need your loving hands to come and pick me up

And every night I miss you

I can just look up

and know the stars are

holdin' you tonight..

I remember the time you told me about when you were sad

And all those things you said that night that just couldn't wait

I remember the car you were last seen in

and the games we would play

All the times we spilled our laughter

and stayed out way too late

I remember the time you told me about your sadness

and how not to look back even if no one believes us

When it hurt so bad sometimes

not having you here...